I tried to obey the commandments of the Torah and live rightly, but God brings many misfortunes and disasters into my life. I prayed to God for peace and happiness, but God always disappointed me and saddened me with calamities for a decade. I always feel ashamed of my life and feel lonely and not happy. I often think why I should honor a God who gives me sorrow and disaster. I wonder if I am being cursed by God.